A Black Spot- (We have not had electricity much, 6 hours only a day while we are asleep from 12-6AM, so this is late & my wife hasn't had time to add any blogs)
Dec. 21st, 2011 The day after the murder, I went back to see if he was still there. I found, not a lifeless & horrific murdered body with a sheet atop it, but merely a small insignificant black spot where his body had been. No one stood around the spot as before. No one noticed it, pointed to it, or talked about it. There was no sign from relatives with a photo or a cross & flowers to bereave their loved one. CONT'D
Every person including my translator, seemed confused by me even inspecting what was to them an insignificant piece of ground with an utterly unremarkable black spot, no different than thousands of other such burn spots all over this city teeming with people. In our small city, at least for awhile, people would have come to look, stood around & talked about it or took photos, but here it was just the previous resting place of another not all-together shocking murder. There was no investigation, no inquiry, no mass questioning. It was merely accepted as normal, just another of life's little annoyances that someone had taken care of, like a dead dog on the highway, so that they need not concern themselves anymore & so that they could return to their normal lives pursuing their previous goals with not so much as a thought to question the certainty, length, or meaning of their own lives.
No human even cared anymore about that one day old news, not a single soul, only me. I did not weep openly, but inside I was heartbroken. For me, that black spot was a symbol of a world without compassion, a nation without God. Not that God isn't available, but just as scripture says, "Therefore, remember that in the past you were Gentiles...at that time you were without Christ...having no hope, and without God in the world." Eph 2:11-12 (abbreviated) The names of God & Jesus are written on most buildings & public vehicles here in Haiti, but only what is written in the heart matters. On Sundays, the greatest number of church-going Haitian men who live here, go to their services & worship God, considering themselves fit for God & heaven & afterwards visit their girlfriends (or mistresses) & spend time with their illicit children with never even the slightest thought of a need for repentance.
There will be justice for that man, for his killers, & for every person, God's perfectly just but unbending justice. And without a belief in the sacrifice of Christ that comes with a life of corresponding holy fruit to crown it as genuine, our fate will be an eternal fire & our names also will be forgotten forever, with not even a black spot to mark the useless lives we have lived. Will you resolve to lose 10 pounds this year, or keep your car clean, or not bite your fingernails or will you get on your knees before a holy God & offer him your faith & life & future? Precious in the sight of God is the death of His saints"! What a difference knowing him makes! For he is coming for a bride that has neither spot nor wrinkle nor any such thing, but for a glorious church, where every member is holy & without blemish. (Eph 5:27)
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
A Christmas Murder- December 19th, 2011
December 19th, 2011
My wife has not been able to blog due to no consistent electricity, internet connection, or time, but hopefully soon she will do many blog updates. For now, this one is from me-
Today, while on a long walk looking for a Christmas present for Holly, I came upon the dead body of a murdered man, lying in the street, covered with a sheet. I could not resist to look under it & be certain as we had recently perhaps helped save the life of an unconscious & bleeding boy presumed dead on the street by getting a nurse to him & her getting him to a hospital. When I removed the sheet, I was unprepared for what I saw. His open & partially melted eyes may stick with me forever, as it was clear that he had been burned up while still alive.
Surprisingly, I was not scared or even aghast at the sight, though something like CSI turns my stomach & I won't even watch those shows. Yet, as time went by today, I felt more & more haunted inside by the man, like Jacob Marley, screaming out from his hellish chains, repent & change your life for like me, you too will die & sooner than you think.
If there is nothing after death, life is meaningless. But if there is a life after that, and there is, nothing else matters but to live for that other life, as this one is just a vapor that comes for a time & then vanishes away. The day before, he was enjoying some food, thinking of a woman perhaps, deciding what he wanted to buy next perhaps as a Christmas present, dreaming of the pleasures of this life as if it would go on forever, but it didn't. What would he have done if he had known it would be his last day on earth? What would what he would have done differently have mattered unless it was before God alone? Might this be your last day, or mine?
We hide death in America so no one will be reminded of their own mortality, as that isn't a pleasant thought. The dead are enbalmed & made to look as much as possible like they did when they were alive, so we never fully see the change, the finality of death, the true ugliness & decay of it. We bury the dead in caskets so their bodies will be "preserved", so the fact never fully hits us as it did me today, that we are all going to die & these bodies are but a patheticly fragile shell.
I hear him crying out what is written on a tombstone in Scottsville, "AS YOU PASS BY, REMEMBER THAT, AS YOU ARE, SO ONCE WAS I, AND AS I AM, YOU SOON WILL BE, PREPARE YOURSELF TO FOLLOW ME." I have heard of a response written on a tombstone with the same message elsewhere, "To follow you, I'll not consent, Until I know, just where you went!" No one knows where he went but God. There was no one to remember him & no one even knew his name, but he is alive somewhere, in heaven or in hell. If it had been you, where would you be now?
Are you trusting you will go to heaven because you think you are a good person? That won't even get you into France to live, much less heaven, as God knows every sin you have ever committed, for example, every lie you have ever told. Scripture tells us that every liar will have part in the lake of fire & that no liar will enter heaven. Are you trusting you would be in heaven because you believe the same thing every devil believes, that Jesus died & rose from the dead but also like them, you live a life of continual sin, unsubmitted to God? I beg you to believe in Jesus & also to surrender your entire life to God, with nothing held back & then pray for me, that I will continue in the same path. For there are greater eyes staring into the depths of my soul than the dead man's.
Let Christmas bring a true spiritual change for us all, knowing how, not merely to keep Christmas in our hearts as Scrooge did, but to keep Christ in the center of our hearts & lives. Chris Wood
P.S. I have a video of the man (covered) on our translator's phone, if I can figure out how to get it off of it.
My wife has not been able to blog due to no consistent electricity, internet connection, or time, but hopefully soon she will do many blog updates. For now, this one is from me-
Today, while on a long walk looking for a Christmas present for Holly, I came upon the dead body of a murdered man, lying in the street, covered with a sheet. I could not resist to look under it & be certain as we had recently perhaps helped save the life of an unconscious & bleeding boy presumed dead on the street by getting a nurse to him & her getting him to a hospital. When I removed the sheet, I was unprepared for what I saw. His open & partially melted eyes may stick with me forever, as it was clear that he had been burned up while still alive.
Surprisingly, I was not scared or even aghast at the sight, though something like CSI turns my stomach & I won't even watch those shows. Yet, as time went by today, I felt more & more haunted inside by the man, like Jacob Marley, screaming out from his hellish chains, repent & change your life for like me, you too will die & sooner than you think.
If there is nothing after death, life is meaningless. But if there is a life after that, and there is, nothing else matters but to live for that other life, as this one is just a vapor that comes for a time & then vanishes away. The day before, he was enjoying some food, thinking of a woman perhaps, deciding what he wanted to buy next perhaps as a Christmas present, dreaming of the pleasures of this life as if it would go on forever, but it didn't. What would he have done if he had known it would be his last day on earth? What would what he would have done differently have mattered unless it was before God alone? Might this be your last day, or mine?
We hide death in America so no one will be reminded of their own mortality, as that isn't a pleasant thought. The dead are enbalmed & made to look as much as possible like they did when they were alive, so we never fully see the change, the finality of death, the true ugliness & decay of it. We bury the dead in caskets so their bodies will be "preserved", so the fact never fully hits us as it did me today, that we are all going to die & these bodies are but a patheticly fragile shell.
I hear him crying out what is written on a tombstone in Scottsville, "AS YOU PASS BY, REMEMBER THAT, AS YOU ARE, SO ONCE WAS I, AND AS I AM, YOU SOON WILL BE, PREPARE YOURSELF TO FOLLOW ME." I have heard of a response written on a tombstone with the same message elsewhere, "To follow you, I'll not consent, Until I know, just where you went!" No one knows where he went but God. There was no one to remember him & no one even knew his name, but he is alive somewhere, in heaven or in hell. If it had been you, where would you be now?
Are you trusting you will go to heaven because you think you are a good person? That won't even get you into France to live, much less heaven, as God knows every sin you have ever committed, for example, every lie you have ever told. Scripture tells us that every liar will have part in the lake of fire & that no liar will enter heaven. Are you trusting you would be in heaven because you believe the same thing every devil believes, that Jesus died & rose from the dead but also like them, you live a life of continual sin, unsubmitted to God? I beg you to believe in Jesus & also to surrender your entire life to God, with nothing held back & then pray for me, that I will continue in the same path. For there are greater eyes staring into the depths of my soul than the dead man's.
Let Christmas bring a true spiritual change for us all, knowing how, not merely to keep Christmas in our hearts as Scrooge did, but to keep Christ in the center of our hearts & lives. Chris Wood
P.S. I have a video of the man (covered) on our translator's phone, if I can figure out how to get it off of it.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Tomorrow I make the journey to my beloved Haiti. I am both nerves and excited for what is ahead of me. My emotions have been crazy the past week. But the good thing is we will be with them. Lots of bonding time is in store for us. All of this is in Gods timing. My trust and hope is in him. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, said the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Please keep us in your prayers.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
stressed
What a stressful past couple of days. It started off with a message from Haiti that our little was not eating because she missed for mom. They said she was getting skinny. I had a our friend Moise go out on Tuesday. He took her boiled eggs and juice. She ate that we talked with her on the phone she thought something was wrong with me or that we had forgotten her. We counted together how many days it will be till we are there. Moise will go back tomorrow with some fruit. We got a adoption update and it looks like we will be staying in Haiti for a bit. Sorry I do not think we will make it home for the holidays. We had a little paper mix up that is going to give us a small delay. But I think this all in Gods plan. I am just having a hard time with it. As much as I love Haiti I am more in love with my comfortable American life. I am also a little excited and nerves about the unknow. I am trying not to give in to the stress. Also the place we had planned to stay at is not going to work out. So when we get to Haiti we will be looking for something. I covet your prayers so very much.Love to you all, Holly
Friday, October 14, 2011
I can’t live as if you don’t exist
I can’t live for I have seen with my own eyes. You are not just someone from tv, a news story, or a dream. I can’t live as if you don’t exist. I have seen you with my own eyes. I held your hand in mine, I have seen the pain in your eyes, I have rocked you to sleep, I have wiped your tears, bandage your wounds. I can’t live as if you don’t exist. For moments I have seen you dance, play, smile, and laugh. I have seen hope in you. I can’t live as if you don’t exist.
God you have seen all of this at times in me, and been there in those times. I can’t live as if you don’t exist.
God you have seen all of this at times in me, and been there in those times. I can’t live as if you don’t exist.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Our Adoption Timeline
January 21, 2010 got e-mail from Eric and Leslie Ludy about earthquake and Danita's Children
January 25,2010 sent application to Danita's Children to go to Haiti
February 10,2010 Got new passport
February 10,2010 signed up with Foundation for Children in Need to go to Haiti
March 4,2010 I Left Nashville for Haiti
March 5, 2010 I Arrived in Haiti
March 12, 2010 Came home from Haiti forever changed
April 20, 2010 Talked to ABI about adopting and using them as our agency
April 29th till May 21st 2010 Chris and I go to Haiti for him to meet the girls
June 10, 2010 I talked to Diana Boni
June 16, 2010 we talked with Diana Boni
June 22, 2010 application sent ABI
July 1, 2010 formal application sent ABI
July 14, 2010 education and formal interview at ABI
July 25, 2010 started sending off for police reports and certificates
July 29, 2010 homestudy at our hose
August 12, 2010 1-600A done and mailed
August 12, 2010 Business agreement with ABI signed and mailed
August 13, 2010 online adoption Education finished
August 13, 2010 Got our dossier paper work
August 24, 2010 Dossier finished and mailed to ABI
August 29, 2010 Homestudy approved
September 7, 2010 I 797C Action in the mail
September 18th till 27th 2010 Haiti trip
October 12, 2010 Finger printing at the FBI
November 15, 2010 Dossier sent to Haiti
Dec 15th till Jan 16th 2010/2011 Haiti trip
January 11, 2011 went to court in Petionville, Haiti to see the clerk/judge
January 24, 2011 started papers for I-600
January 27, 2011 we entered IBESR
February 16, 2011 sent papers in for I600
May 2nd to 17th 2011 Haiti trip
May 14, 2011 Letter from Visa center I-600 is approved
June 24, 2011 out of ISESR
July 11, 2011 Out of Parquet Court
July 17th till 27th 2011 Haiti trip
July 20, 2011 we went to see the Dean
September 29, 2011 we got an update saying we have been in MOI for 2 weeks
October 6, 2011 US Consulate appointment
January 25,2010 sent application to Danita's Children to go to Haiti
February 10,2010 Got new passport
February 10,2010 signed up with Foundation for Children in Need to go to Haiti
March 4,2010 I Left Nashville for Haiti
March 5, 2010 I Arrived in Haiti
March 12, 2010 Came home from Haiti forever changed
April 20, 2010 Talked to ABI about adopting and using them as our agency
April 29th till May 21st 2010 Chris and I go to Haiti for him to meet the girls
June 10, 2010 I talked to Diana Boni
June 16, 2010 we talked with Diana Boni
June 22, 2010 application sent ABI
July 1, 2010 formal application sent ABI
July 14, 2010 education and formal interview at ABI
July 25, 2010 started sending off for police reports and certificates
July 29, 2010 homestudy at our hose
August 12, 2010 1-600A done and mailed
August 12, 2010 Business agreement with ABI signed and mailed
August 13, 2010 online adoption Education finished
August 13, 2010 Got our dossier paper work
August 24, 2010 Dossier finished and mailed to ABI
August 29, 2010 Homestudy approved
September 7, 2010 I 797C Action in the mail
September 18th till 27th 2010 Haiti trip
October 12, 2010 Finger printing at the FBI
November 15, 2010 Dossier sent to Haiti
Dec 15th till Jan 16th 2010/2011 Haiti trip
January 11, 2011 went to court in Petionville, Haiti to see the clerk/judge
January 24, 2011 started papers for I-600
January 27, 2011 we entered IBESR
February 16, 2011 sent papers in for I600
May 2nd to 17th 2011 Haiti trip
May 14, 2011 Letter from Visa center I-600 is approved
June 24, 2011 out of ISESR
July 11, 2011 Out of Parquet Court
July 17th till 27th 2011 Haiti trip
July 20, 2011 we went to see the Dean
September 29, 2011 we got an update saying we have been in MOI for 2 weeks
October 6, 2011 US Consulate appointment
hair care for new vanilla mamas
This is two blogs I wanted to share with you all. I am trying to learn about my girls hair and the best care for it.
http://youlittlerascal.blogspot.com/2011/09/hair-care-for-new-vanilla-mamas.html
http://www.happygirlhair.com/
http://youlittlerascal.blogspot.com/2011/09/hair-care-for-new-vanilla-mamas.html
http://www.happygirlhair.com/
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