Tomorrow I make the journey to my beloved Haiti. I am both nerves and excited for what is ahead of me. My emotions have been crazy the past week. But the good thing is we will be with them. Lots of bonding time is in store for us. All of this is in Gods timing. My trust and hope is in him. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, said the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Please keep us in your prayers.

stressed

What a stressful past couple of days. It started off with a message from Haiti that our little was not eating because she missed for mom. They said she was getting skinny. I had a our friend Moise go out on Tuesday. He took her boiled eggs and juice. She ate that we talked with her on the phone she thought something was wrong with me or that we had forgotten her. We counted together how many days it will be till we are there. Moise will go back tomorrow with some fruit. We got a adoption update and it looks like we will be staying in Haiti for a bit. Sorry I do not think we will make it home for the holidays. We had a little paper mix up that is going to give us a small delay. But I think this all in Gods plan. I am just having a hard time with it. As much as I love Haiti I am more in love with my comfortable American life. I am also a little excited and nerves about the unknow. I am trying not to give in to the stress. Also the place we had planned to stay at is not going to work out. So when we get to Haiti we will be looking for something. I covet your prayers so very much.Love to you all, Holly

I can’t live as if you don’t exist

I can’t live for I have seen with my own eyes. You are not just someone from tv, a news story, or a dream. I can’t live as if you don’t exist. I have seen you with my own eyes. I held your hand in mine, I have seen the pain in your eyes, I have rocked you to sleep, I have wiped your tears, bandage your wounds. I can’t live as if you don’t exist. For moments I have seen you dance, play, smile, and laugh. I have seen hope in you. I can’t live as if you don’t exist.

God you have seen all of this at times in me, and been there in those times. I can’t live as if you don’t exist.

Our Adoption Timeline

January 21, 2010 got e-mail from Eric and Leslie Ludy about earthquake and Danita's Children

January 25,2010 sent application to Danita's Children to go to Haiti

February 10,2010 Got new passport

February 10,2010 signed up with Foundation for Children in Need to go to Haiti

March 4,2010 I Left Nashville for Haiti

March 5, 2010 I Arrived in Haiti

March 12, 2010 Came home from Haiti forever changed

April 20, 2010 Talked to ABI about adopting and using them as our agency

April 29th till May 21st 2010 Chris and I go to Haiti for him to meet the girls

June 10, 2010 I talked to Diana Boni

June 16, 2010 we talked with Diana Boni

June 22, 2010 application sent ABI

July 1, 2010 formal application sent ABI

July 14, 2010 education and formal interview at ABI

July 25, 2010 started sending off for police reports and certificates

July 29, 2010 homestudy at our hose

August 12, 2010 1-600A done and mailed

August 12, 2010 Business agreement with ABI signed and mailed

August 13, 2010 online adoption Education finished

August 13, 2010 Got our dossier paper work

August 24, 2010 Dossier finished and mailed to ABI

August 29, 2010 Homestudy approved

September 7, 2010 I 797C Action in the mail

September 18th till 27th 2010 Haiti trip

October 12, 2010 Finger printing at the FBI

November 15, 2010 Dossier sent to Haiti

Dec 15th till Jan 16th 2010/2011 Haiti trip

January 11, 2011 went to court in Petionville, Haiti to see the clerk/judge

January 24, 2011 started papers for I-600

January 27, 2011 we entered IBESR

February 16, 2011 sent papers in for I600

May 2nd to 17th 2011 Haiti trip

May 14, 2011 Letter from Visa center I-600 is approved

June 24, 2011 out of ISESR

July 11, 2011 Out of Parquet Court

July 17th till 27th 2011 Haiti trip

July 20, 2011 we went to see the Dean

September 29, 2011 we got an update saying we have been in MOI for 2 weeks

October 6, 2011 US Consulate appointment

hair care for new vanilla mamas

This is two blogs I wanted to share with you all. I am trying to learn about my girls hair and the best care for it.

http://youlittlerascal.blogspot.com/2011/09/hair-care-for-new-vanilla-mamas.html

http://www.happygirlhair.com/

US Consulate

The girls families went today for there interview with the US Consulate. Margarette had to wait over an hour outside at the US Embassy. The guards would not let her in. Diana made some contacts and got her in. The interviews went well. Thank God one more thing is done.

To the boy of 13

To the boy of 13 who never got to see what it was like to go on your first date, to never have know what it was like to be 16 and go for your first drive. to see your bride on your wedding day. To see that life can be crazy sometimes but an adventure. To me you will always be a boy of 13. You are loved and missed by your little sister who misses that she never got to see the man you would have became. We dreamed dreams together they where only that for you will always be 13. 23 years ago we lost our brother Jason, and our lives forever changed